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I don’t want to live like this

Waking up feels like a punishment

And sleep’s the only time I feel okay

I’ve stopped answering the phone

I watch the texts come in and fade

I’m not trying to be dramatic

I just don’t have the strength today

They ask me how I’m doing

And I say, “I’m just tired”

But the truth is so much darker

And I’m running out of quiet

I feel like I’m breaking

And it’s taking too long

To be okay

To feel like I matter

I don’t want advice

I just want the pain

To stop

So don’t tell me I’m strong

I don’t feel strong

Sometimes i just want the days to stop

Today might be one of them

I don’t want a lesson

I don’t want a prayer

I just want it to end

I cleaned my room like it mattered

Lit a candle just to feel control

Sat on the edge of my bed

And stared

At everything

and nothing

at all

They ask me how I’m doing

And I say, “I’m just tired”

But the truth is so much darker

And I’m running out of quiet

I feel like I’m breaking

And it’s taking too long

To be okay

To feel like I matter

I don’t want advice

I just want the pain

To stop

So don’t tell me I’m strong

I don’t feel strong

Don’t tell me it gets better

I don’t need hope right now

I need someone

this hurts

it’s heavy

it’s real

I’m not asking to be rescued

I’m just tired of pretending

That I want to stay

I know people will say they cared

After I’m gone

But I needed that before

Not after

Not in flowers

Not in songs

I don’t hate anyone

I’m just tired of hurting

I’ve screamed every silent scream

And no one heard a thing

They ask me how I’m doing

And I say, “I’m just tired”

But the truth is so much darker

And I’m running out of quiet

I feel like I’m breaking

And it’s taking too long

To be okay

To feel like I matter

I don’t want advice

I just want the pain

To stop

So don’t tell me I’m strong

I don’t feel strong

Just know

I tried

I swear

I tried

RΛCHΞY | @rachey13x

Lyrics: © 2025 Rachey.

Music and Arrangement: © 2025 Rachey.

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