Some nights I sit awake

and try to remember

what it feels like

to be "okay"

I'm scanning my room

looking for anything that feels familiar

But it doesn't

"Or does it?" (mmhmm)

I get tired of pretending I’m fine

in rooms that feel too bright

And when it gets too loud in my head

I catch myself wishing you could hear it too

just so I’m not the only one in the dark (oohh)

I don't know why

I breathe easier when I'm alone

And I hate admitting that

‘cause it sounds like I’m weak

But I'm not, I'm just a wrack,

And I'm dead

dead inside

Ohhh don't act like your surprised

Y'allready saw it in my eyes

If there's a word for all that noise

It'd simply be... paranoid

I never told you

And I don’t know how

to explain that I get scared

when things feel too good

It’s like my brain keeps waiting

for something to crack

even when

there's nothing wrong at all (oohh)

I wish I didn’t think that way

But wishing doesn’t change the way

my chest tightens whenever

people walk away

like it’s the last time

Sometimes I wonder

if you’d stay

if you knew

how loud it gets in me

I’m trying

I swear I am

I just don’t wanna break

in thousand pieces again

I just need

Somebody

not to run

Even when it's me, who runs away

I don't know why

I can't breathe when I'm alone

And I hate admitting that

‘cause I know how weak I am

I pull you in, push you away

I feel dumb the more I say

But I'm not, I'm just a wrack

And I'm dead

dead inside

Ohhh don't act like your surprised

Y'allready saw it in my eyes

If there's a word for all that noise

It'd simply be... paranoid

Ohh ohh ohohh

Ohh ohh Ohohh