🎹 Title: “Questions in the Dark”

(Delicate keys, slow tempo)

Mm… yeah…

NICKY! … no answers…

Why do I choose to suffer?

Why I dance in the pain?

Why I keep running back

To the storm and the rain?

Am I not good enough?

Tell me what do I lack?

I keep asking the dark…

But it don’t answer back

Mirror on the wall, don’t recognize my face

Smiles feel fake, yeah they outta place

Heart got heavy, got a permanent bruise

Every time I heal, I find more to lose

Tryna find peace but I’m stuck in my head

Fighting these thoughts when I lay in my bed

Silence so loud, yeah it cuts so deep

Even my dreams don’t let me sleep

Why do I choose to suffer?

Why I dance in the pain?

Why I keep running back

To the storm and the rain?

Am I not good enough?

Tell me what do I lack?

I keep asking the dark…

But it don’t answer back

Yeah…

Look—

I been carrying weight I ain't showin’

Smiling outside but inside I’m broken

Every scar got a story unspoken

Every loss left my heart wide open

Why I sabotage everything good?

Why I never feel like I should?

Self-doubt got me misunderstood

Fighting myself more than anyone could

I chase pain like it owe me rent

Every wrong turn got me heaven-sent?

Or maybe I’m lost in the consequence

Of never feeling like I made sense

I need answers, but I fear the truth

What if the problem’s me in the proof?

What if I’m stuck in a loop I choose…

And I’m the one I can’t excuse…

If I let go… would I fall apart?

Or finally heal what’s in my heart?

If I break down… will I be free?

Or just become what I always see…

Why do I choose to suffer?

Why I dance in the pain?

Why I keep running back

To the storm and the rain?

Am I not good enough?

Tell me what do I lack?

I keep asking the dark…

But it don’t answer back

(Whispered)

I just need… answers…