Your plan was so much better in your head,

Now you're stuck with her instead – that's what you get.

Told me you wish that you could start again,

but the past is a ghost haunting you with regret.

Walking away, I slip on the pain,

knocked out cold in the pour of the rain.

Dreamed of monkeys dancing in an underground town,

banana now, banana now is the only sound.

Woke up unsure who I was in the mirror,

Who? Me? Who's there? My reflection won't get clearer.

You say I'm you, I say you're me in the spinning heat,

I'm losing track of the names – identity on repeat.

Tick-tock on the clock, big stocks on the rise,

they flip war for profit while we swallow their lies.

Same crime, new lie, kids die – do you hear their cries?

Missiles drop, markets pop, and my innocence dies.

Clickety-clack, reality cracks under attack,

politician-pack stacks cash off another pact.

I'm burning up from this endless, vicious ride,

the world's on fire and I'm empty inside.

So soft... the way you said it like I wouldn't remember,

like it wouldn't ruin me, soft and slow.

I saw your smile – a crescent moon in the dark,

but it wasn't light, it was teeth razor-sharp.

I taste the betrayal each time that I breathe;

you said, "Sleep, good drugs," you promised relief.

But I'm still awake and it's getting louder,

you took my last breath and called it mercy – how could you be prouder?

If I had any spine left, maybe I would stand,

if I had any strength left, maybe I’d run.

I've held my breath so long I forgot how to breathe,

and now it's too late to remember how to move on.

The night doesn’t need me, the pills don't want me,

the silence grows loud, it's the only one to haunt me.

I want to go home, but I'm lost and alone,

time keeps passing but I'm stuck like a stone.

This was never the dream I was promised or sold,

now I'm trapped in the past with no future to hold.

It's lonely... and it's getting only lonelier.

Giving up on happiness isn't easy, I know.

But after sinking so long it feels almost comforting

to stop reaching up and just let myself go.

The silence is louder with each passing day,

my face in the mirror is fading away.

Drifting for hours; I buried my dreams.

Everyone moves on, but I’m bursting at the seams.

Now time and reason just float by like satellites,

out of reach above these endless nights.

Give me a reason – some proof I was ever here at all...

This is the end, I can't pretend anymore,

I'm fucked, and there's no one left I can call.

I recall a promise: "Let no shadow steal your mirth,"

but the cosmos is quiet now above this empty earth.

Carried a weight so heavy it turned my days into night;

I gave you my world and lost myself in the fight.

Now the quiet falls around me as I’m sinking under,

and the silence wins in the end – that's what you get.