I’m leaking right from my dreams

Unraveling at the seams

Why won’t someone just-

Help me die

I tried so hard to be seen

But obsession cut me clean

If you ever ask me why I lied,

expect me to shut up and cry

Uh uh uh

Oh, I-

Overthink, I think and think and think

This depression’s wearing me thin

Mental suppression

Won’t work anymore

Don’t just say it how you like, you know,

when I put on a show

Uh uh uh

I tried to be what you think

Someone that doesn’t sink

But it pushed me to the brink

My calamity of a head

I just want to go to bed

But then I won’t be ahead

Just to see ya, to hear ya, to feel ya

My time is running down

Please just turn my frown

Upside down

Oh, I-

Can’t take this life anymore

I’m just always so fucking sore

I can’t even get up

To even go to the store

And despite it all

I just want more

Uh uh uh

Of this pain, this sticky, icky pain

It’s the only thing I’ve known

It reminds me that I’m here

Why I steer myself to hurt

It’s just a concert

I blurt out words to purge

I’m bleeding just to surge

Something’s wrong with me, I swear

I don’t wanna wear my skin

It feels rotten and so icky, so icky

I’m just a

Itty bitty mess

Who acts normal just to impress

I say it just like you know,

I always put on a show

Uh uh uh

Because I’m fading

Just fading

Waning

It’s just so draining

This monster under my skin

A beast that always grins

This voice inside my head

I’m a calamity so full of dread

I can’t love, I just get scared

Because I’ve hurt everyone I hold so dear

Sunk my claws in

Just to disappear

But with the changing of the seasons

It’s giving me a reason

A reason for deletion

My justification for leaving

Oh-

And with the changing of the seasons

I thought I’d be believing

I never wanted to die

I just wanted to

Try

But now all I do is cry,

Toss and turn and never try

You love me when I’m honest

Yeah, you think you just know best

A reason?

No, I don’t need a reason

My paper heart is bleeding

A bitterness repeating

And you will find a way to live like this

A cut-out plastic likeness

So suffer here in silence, in silence

Just to see ya, to hear ya, to feel ya

My time is running out

Please just turn my frown

Upside down

Oh, I-

I’m fading,

Just fading,

Waning

It’s just so draining

No, I don’t need a reason

My paper heart is bleeding

All I want is to, is to

Cry

Sit all alone and just

Cry

I don't want to

Cry

But everything just makes me

Cry

Oh god why won't someone just

Tear me apart and devour whats left