Verse 1)
I had to play it cool, keep my eyes on the bag
While you was out here movin’ loose, makin’ me gag
Every lie, every b**ch, every time you went ghost
I folded ‘em up neat, kept the ones I loved most
See, I couldn’t hate you and stay in the bed
So I locked all that trauma in the back of my head
I treated your sins like some out-of-season clothes
Stored ‘em in the attic where nobody goes.
(Chorus)
I had to compartmentalize just to keep us alive
Put the pain in a drawer so the love could survive
I checked the "ignore" box, I blurred out the bad
Focusin’ on the vision that we almost had
Yeah, I moved it to the side, kept my heart on the shelf
’Cause hatin’ you was startin’ to kill me myself.
(Verse 2)
You think I forgot? No, I just redirected
Keepin’ my energy high and protected
When you was actin’ out, I was internalizin’
Building up walls while the pressure was risin’
I made a little room for the "good" version of you
And blocked out the monster that I also knew
It’s a heavy-ass load, carryin’ two different men
One I wanna build with, and one that’s a sin.

Chorus)
I had to compartmentalize just to keep us alive
Put the pain in a drawer so the love could survive
I checked the "ignore" box, I blurred out the bad
Focusin’ on the vision that we almost had
Yeah, I moved it to the side, kept my heart on the shelf
’Cause hatin’ you was startin’ to kill me myself.

(Bridge)
But the box gettin’ full and the tape startin’ to peel
I’m runnin’ out of space for the way that I feel
You can’t keep addin’ to the pile in the dark
Eventually the friction’s gonna catch a spark.

Chorus)
I had to compartmentalize just to keep us alive
Put the pain in a drawer so the love could survive
I checked the "ignore" box, I blurred out the bad
Focusin’ on the vision that we almost had
Yeah, I moved it to the side, kept my heart on the shelf
’Cause hatin’ you was startin’ to kill me myself.