Verse 1)

I had to play it cool, keep my eyes on the bag

While you was out here movin’ loose, makin’ me gag

Every lie, every b**ch, every time you went ghost

I folded ‘em up neat, kept the ones I loved most

See, I couldn’t hate you and stay in the bed

So I locked all that trauma in the back of my head

I treated your sins like some out-of-season clothes

Stored ‘em in the attic where nobody goes.

(Chorus)

I had to compartmentalize just to keep us alive

Put the pain in a drawer so the love could survive

I checked the "ignore" box, I blurred out the bad

Focusin’ on the vision that we almost had

Yeah, I moved it to the side, kept my heart on the shelf

’Cause hatin’ you was startin’ to kill me myself.

(Verse 2)

You think I forgot? No, I just redirected

Keepin’ my energy high and protected

When you was actin’ out, I was internalizin’

Building up walls while the pressure was risin’

I made a little room for the "good" version of you

And blocked out the monster that I also knew

It’s a heavy-ass load, carryin’ two different men

One I wanna build with, and one that’s a sin.

Chorus)

I had to compartmentalize just to keep us alive

Put the pain in a drawer so the love could survive

I checked the "ignore" box, I blurred out the bad

Focusin’ on the vision that we almost had

Yeah, I moved it to the side, kept my heart on the shelf

’Cause hatin’ you was startin’ to kill me myself.

(Bridge)

But the box gettin’ full and the tape startin’ to peel

I’m runnin’ out of space for the way that I feel

You can’t keep addin’ to the pile in the dark

Eventually the friction’s gonna catch a spark.

Chorus)

I had to compartmentalize just to keep us alive

Put the pain in a drawer so the love could survive

I checked the "ignore" box, I blurred out the bad

Focusin’ on the vision that we almost had

Yeah, I moved it to the side, kept my heart on the shelf

’Cause hatin’ you was startin’ to kill me myself.