Verse 1

I didn’t clean myself up

Before I learned His name

Still got dust on my hands

Still got scars that remain

They say, “You don’t look holy”

“You don’t sound like the rest”

But I’m learning how to walk now

With a heart that’s still a mess

Pre-Chorus

I took one step toward the light

Now the shadows know my face

Chorus

There’s a stigma on believing

When you don’t fit the mold

When you don’t look like a saint yet

Just a sinner learning hope

They say, “You were fine before Him”

“Why you changing anyway?”

But everything hurts until it doesn’t

When the old self starts to fade

Verse 2

The world keeps calling my old name

Like I never let it go

Like grace don’t come in stages

Like faith ain’t something grown

They tempt me with the comfort

Of the man I used to be

But chains that feel familiar

Are still chains around all of me

Pre-Chorus

I hear whispers in the night

“Just go back, it’s easier that way”

Chorus

There’s a stigma on repentance

Like it’s weakness to confess

Like surrender means you’re losing

Not being saved from the mess

They say, “If God really changed you

You’d be stronger than this pain”

But everything hurts until it doesn’t

When you’re learning how to stay

Verse 3

I’m not proud of where I’ve been

But I’m grateful where I stand

Every step away from darkness

Feels like war inside a man

I don’t have all the answers

I just know Who holds my life

And I’d rather limp toward Heaven

Than run back to my old lies

Bridge

The enemy knows my history

Tries to weaponize my shame

But the cross rewrote my ending

Even if the world won’t change

If this faith makes me an outcast

If it costs me what I was

I’ll bear the weight of the stigma

If it means I have His love

Final Chorus

Let them doubt my transformation

I know Who has changed my name

I was healed the moment He called me

I was rescued in His name

I’m not who I was yesterday

I’m becoming what He’s done

Some days hurt more than others

But I’m walking with the Son