i need it

basement window

i can feel it moving

something in me

doesn’t sit right

i tried to ignore it

kept it quiet

told myself

it would pass

but it didn’t

---

i stayed with it

longer than i should

i knew it then

just didn’t say it

---

i need the antidote

not later

right now

something’s breaking open

i don’t know how

i need the antidote

before i disappear

---

every signal

felt a little distant

like it wasn’t mine

anymore

i kept adjusting

kept it steady

even when

i knew

---

i bent everything

just to keep it still

but it kept moving

---

i need the antidote

not later

right now

something’s breaking open

i don’t know how

i need the antidote

before i disappear

---

i saw it coming

i didn’t stop it

i felt it changing

i let it

i don’t know

when it took me

but i know

it did

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i NEED the antidote

not later

RIGHT now

something’s breaking open

i can’t shut it down

i NEED the antidote

before i disappear

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i need it

i need it