[Alternative Rock, Sludge Bass, Heavy Drums, Grungy Intro]


[Style: Grunge, Dark Alternative Rock]

Verse

Their eyes pierce right through me

With judgment and greed.

I'm sweating with shame now,

From guilt I don't need.


I wake from my sleeping

To real-world nightmares.

No running away now,

There’s no shelter there.


Back decades ago

A shy girl in town,

Ignored by the boys.

The girls tore her down.


Chorus

"You are so ugly,

So worthless and plain."

Until I believed it

And drowned in the pain.


[Style Switch: Transition to Shoegaze, Dream Pop, Ethereal Wall of Sound, Shimmering Guitars]

Verse

Then at nineteen, a friend

With camera in hand,

Shot fields through the country

And friends in the land.


He wanted to try it,

A nude in the wild.

I felt so excited,

But something just smiled.


Cold mountain air,

Pure streams running by.

No clothing to wear,

Just art, black and white.


I showed all the prints

To a close friend of mine.

She just whispered "wow",

"You look so divine."


I felt the acceptance,

The warmth in my heart.

Just healing my trauma,

The pain tearing apart.


[Style Switch: Cold Alternative, Sharp Guitars, Mechanical Beat, Dark Tension]

Verse

With one of those pictures

I stepped on the stage,

Online, on a platform,

To model for cash.


The very next morning

The first message came:

A pro who was searching,

Nude models his aim.


His work on the website

Looked safe all around.

We met for the shooting

At his studio downtown.


First it was portraits,

Then fashion, then art.

The clothes were falling,

And I stood there bare.


"Now lift up your leg,

It’s best for the light.

Now open them wider."

But it felt so wrong.


And yet I just followed,

Did all that he said.

"It’s part of the business,

Oh, don't be afraid."


But when it was over,

The sickness crawled in.

This wasn’t fine art,

Just selling my skin.


Weeks later I found it:

My pics on a page,

A teaser for money,

A commercial display.


[Style: Heavy Grunge, Aggressive Melancholy]

Chorus

"You are so ugly,

So worthless and plain."

Until I believed it

And drowned in the pain.


[Style Switch: Extreme Drama, Midwest Emo Guitars breaking into Death Metal Screams in background]

Bridge

In panic I called

The friend from before.

I cried out my heart,

But she closed the door.


"You wanted this yourself,

He used no control.

You posed there completely,

You gave him it all."


[Guitar Solo: Screaming, distorted Grunge-Gaze Solo, Wall of Noise]


[Style: Post-Grunge, Slow Heavy Breakdown]

Verse

The box is wide open,

The web keeps my past.

I can’t pull it back now,

The shadow will last.

It chases me home

Through guilt and my shame.


The grass slowly grows,

The memory fades.

But in the cold nights

The terror awakes.


[Outro: Fade out with ringing Shoegaze Guitar Feedback and a fading heartbeat rhythm]