Our vow was never “love ’til death,” it was “silence ‘til the end.”

You said, “We’re in the same boat, and the secrets must stay deep.”

And I swore my devotion to you, even if that meant lying to everyone.

You were committing the betrayal, and I offered it up as a “sacrifice of love.”

I was sealing every leak in your sinking ship, willingly drowning with you.

All the roles I mastered playing

Just to believe I was fit for you.

All the real names I forgot for your sake—

Was my performance the best thing you’ve ever witnessed?

I couldn’t sleep afterward; your shadow stayed on my bedroom wall.

You convinced me this lurking guilt was a “passion” no one else could grasp.

I was giving you sick loyalty, ignoring every glaring red flag.

And now, whenever I open my window, I fear the neighbors see the scars.

I realized I got addicted to the pain you left more than the love—

‘Cause you know I’d walk into the same scenario as long as you’re in it.

Every clear sky I blocked out from view

’Cause I chose to share the darkness of your prison.

All the wrongs you made me exercise—

Was I just a cheap way for you to pass the time?

What we broke wasn’t just a relationship; it was my old humanity.

You were killing a part of me nightly, and I’d applaud your devilish act.

Yeah, I was addicted, but the addiction is over, and now it’s just a bad deal.

All that’s left is me, the regret, and the consequence I must embrace.

This is what happens when you give your soul to someone soulless.

Every clear sky I blocked out from view

’Cause I chose to share the darkness of your prison.

All the roles I mastered playing—

Was I just a cheap way for you to pass the time?

Tell me I was hard to forget (hard to forget).

Confirm this wasn’t all for nothing (all for nothing).

‘Cause, baby, you’re the only one who decides what this cost me