Chasing Shadows
electronic pop, Chinese strings, cinematic pop, experimental electronic, 132 BPM, halftime trap beat, syncopated drum programming, piano hook, detuned synth leads, stacked harmonies, pulsing sub-bass, sidechain pumping, wide stereo mix, tape saturation, plate reverb, late-night longing, uplifted resolve
Shadrix·5:14
5:14
Chasing Shadows
electronic pop, Chinese strings, cinematic pop, experimental electronic, 132 BPM, halftime trap beat, syncopated drum programming, piano hook, detuned synth leads, stacked harmonies, pulsing sub-bass, sidechain pumping, wide stereo mix, tape saturation, plate reverb, late-night longing, uplifted resolve
Creator: ShadrixRelease Date: May 25, 2026
Lyrics
[Verse 1]
I carried all these broken pieces
Trying hard to rearrange
You wanted me to heal overnight
Like people turn around and change
And maybe I said things careless
And I crossed lines too
But every time I tried explaining
You only saw me broken down
You called it trying to understand
But it felt like pressure in disguise
Like every scar I opened
Was another reason you saw less
[Pre-Chorus]
You can’t force a heart to heal
By making them feel ashamed
Some people fall apart slowly
Before they rise again
[Chorus]
Now I’m chasing shadows
Running through the dark again
Trying not to fall back
Into who I’ve always been
You said you respected me
So why did it feel like you didn't?
When every part I opened
Got lost in your ways
I was trying to change
But pain don’t disappear that fast
And when you don’t feel understood
It pulls you to the past
So I’m chasing shadows
Of the person I could be
While fighting every version
That still lives inside of me
[Verse 2]
Broken people move in circles
One step forward, two behind
Trying to unlearn survival
Takes more than just time
Sometimes I needed silence
Sometimes I needed grace
Not another conversation
That turned love into a case
You thought because you listened
That meant you truly knew
But hearing someone’s story
Ain’t the same as feeling through
[Pre-Chorus]
Healing isn’t linear
It bends and disappears
And the ones still trying hardest
Usually hide it through their tears
[Chorus]
Now I’m chasing shadows
Running through the dark again
Trying not to fall back
Into who I’ve always been
You said you respected me
So why did it feel like you didn't?
When every part I opened
Got lost in your ways
I was trying to change
But pain don’t disappear that fast
And when you don’t feel understood
It pulls you to the past
So I’m chasing shadows
Of the person I could be
While fighting every version
That still lives inside of me
[Bridge]
Maybe we were both exhausted
Trying to prove who hurt the most
Our love became a battlefield
Instead of feeling close
I never asked for perfection
Just patience while I healed
Because people don’t transform
The second wounds are revealed
You can't tell somebody
That they are lesser than you
That just pushes them further
You cared, but only to my good
[Final Chorus]
Still chasing shadows
But I’m learning how to stay
Even when the old emotions
Try to pull me away
And maybe one day healing
Won’t feel so far from reach
Maybe understanding starts
When both sides choose to see
[Outro]
Not everyone changes instantly
Some hearts heal slow
But that doesn’t mean
They’re not trying to grow
I carried all these broken pieces
Trying hard to rearrange
You wanted me to heal overnight
Like people turn around and change
And maybe I said things careless
And I crossed lines too
But every time I tried explaining
You only saw me broken down
You called it trying to understand
But it felt like pressure in disguise
Like every scar I opened
Was another reason you saw less
[Pre-Chorus]
You can’t force a heart to heal
By making them feel ashamed
Some people fall apart slowly
Before they rise again
[Chorus]
Now I’m chasing shadows
Running through the dark again
Trying not to fall back
Into who I’ve always been
You said you respected me
So why did it feel like you didn't?
When every part I opened
Got lost in your ways
I was trying to change
But pain don’t disappear that fast
And when you don’t feel understood
It pulls you to the past
So I’m chasing shadows
Of the person I could be
While fighting every version
That still lives inside of me
[Verse 2]
Broken people move in circles
One step forward, two behind
Trying to unlearn survival
Takes more than just time
Sometimes I needed silence
Sometimes I needed grace
Not another conversation
That turned love into a case
You thought because you listened
That meant you truly knew
But hearing someone’s story
Ain’t the same as feeling through
[Pre-Chorus]
Healing isn’t linear
It bends and disappears
And the ones still trying hardest
Usually hide it through their tears
[Chorus]
Now I’m chasing shadows
Running through the dark again
Trying not to fall back
Into who I’ve always been
You said you respected me
So why did it feel like you didn't?
When every part I opened
Got lost in your ways
I was trying to change
But pain don’t disappear that fast
And when you don’t feel understood
It pulls you to the past
So I’m chasing shadows
Of the person I could be
While fighting every version
That still lives inside of me
[Bridge]
Maybe we were both exhausted
Trying to prove who hurt the most
Our love became a battlefield
Instead of feeling close
I never asked for perfection
Just patience while I healed
Because people don’t transform
The second wounds are revealed
You can't tell somebody
That they are lesser than you
That just pushes them further
You cared, but only to my good
[Final Chorus]
Still chasing shadows
But I’m learning how to stay
Even when the old emotions
Try to pull me away
And maybe one day healing
Won’t feel so far from reach
Maybe understanding starts
When both sides choose to see
[Outro]
Not everyone changes instantly
Some hearts heal slow
But that doesn’t mean
They’re not trying to grow