Merry Christmas 🎅🖤🎄





suzu on da beat...
yeah… fuck.


I don’t know, I don’t know,
who the fuck I even am no more.
I see it, I get it,
but I don’t move, that’s my curse.

There’s pain behind this lazy tone,
a deeper wound I don’t show.
I laugh and say “I’m fine,”
but you know… it’s bullshit.


To-do lists stacked high as hell,
and I just stare, don’t even yell.
World runs laps, I’m still stuck,
in my bed, like fuck my luck.

Say it’s meaningless,
but that’s the only peace I get.
Sunlight hits my face again,
feels like punishment for breathing it.


A spark lights, then dies in my hands,
motivation slips like sand.
Yesterday’s me, today’s me,
same body, same fuckin’ plan.


I don’t know, I don’t know,
who the fuck I even am no more.
I see it, I get it,
but I don’t move, that’s my curse.

There’s pain behind this lazy tone,
a deeper wound I don’t show.
I laugh and say “I’m fine,”
but you know… it’s bullshit.


I fake belief in myself,
then throw the rest to tomorrow.
Tomorrow shows up the same —
empty, dry, and hollow.

My fire’s low, barely burns,
I fade out, still never learn.
Ain’t nobody else to blame,
yeah, I know, it’s my damn name.


“Move,” they say —
but that word just fuckin’ echoes.
“Promise,” I say —
but it means nothin’ when I’m hollow.


I don’t know, I don’t know,
who the fuck I even am no more.
I see it, I get it,
but I don’t move, that’s my curse.

There’s pain behind this lazy tone,
a deeper wound I don’t show.
I laugh and say “I’m fine,”
but you know… it’s bullshit.


I don’t know, I don’t know,
thought I did, but I lost that road.
I know, I know…
but still, I whisper — “I don’t know.”